There was once a time...
when every day was a living nightmare
when I thought we'd never get through
when I sobbed multiple times a day
when I thought we'd never all be under the same roof
when I wished I could be normal
when every prayer pleaded for Erin's recovery.
Now is a time...
when the nightmare is now the memory of a bad dream
when we feel the joy of what we've overcome
when the tears that fall are full of gratitude
when we are all together
when I understand there is never a normal
when every prayer thanks for Erin's remission.
We are grateful for Erin's remission and each day that she gets further and further from her cancer diagnosis. Erin is so full of life. In her 3 1/2 years she has overcome so much, I hope that sets a basis for her life. I hope that she will never accept defeat in anything challenging that she may face in her future.
Erin started Preschool last week. It makes me teary when she goes, I just can't believe she is here with us doing normal 3 year old activities. She loves preschool, it has been a small transition for her...I think she missed me on the first day because she told me she cried for me at preschool. But she hasn't cried since that first day.
The kids on the first day of preschool
Sometimes when Erin finds me on my computer she asks to watch her cancer video. She LOVES to watch it. She comments throughout the whole movie, telling me about what she's doing in it, what she's wearing, about her blue tube-ees, and about how I cried all the time while she was in the hospital. She asks to watch it over and over. She laughs though it while I cry through it. I can't watch it without remembering all that we went through. I am so thankful that we haven't seen any deep emotional scars in Erin from all that she went through. I think that what she has overcome so far has built her self-esteem and confidence. I love my little air bear.