On June 1, 2010 our two year old, "Little Air Bear," was diagnosed with Childhood Acute Myeloid Leukemia (AML) Type M7. After enduring 146 days at Primary Children's Hospital, Erin is now in remission and living a full life at home with our family. Her strong will and constant happy smile is an inspiration to us all. Through our difficult circumstances we found great strength and peace in our Savior, Jesus Christ. Thank you for checking in on us.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Now is a time...

There was once a time...
when every day was a living nightmare
when I thought we'd never get through
when I sobbed multiple times a day
when I thought we'd never all be under the same roof
when I wished I could be normal
when every prayer pleaded for Erin's recovery.

Now is a time...
when the nightmare is now the memory of a bad dream
when we feel the joy of what we've overcome
when the tears that fall are full of gratitude
when we are all together
when I understand there is never a normal
when every prayer thanks for Erin's remission.

We are grateful for Erin's remission and each day that she gets further and further from her cancer diagnosis.  Erin is so full of life.  In her 3 1/2 years she has overcome so much, I hope that sets a basis for her life.  I hope that she will never accept defeat in anything challenging that she may face in her future. 

Erin started Preschool last week.  It makes me teary when she goes, I just can't believe she is here with us doing normal 3 year old activities.  She loves preschool, it has been a small transition for her...I think she missed me on the first day because she told me she cried for me at preschool.  But she hasn't cried since that first day.

The kids on the first day of preschool

Sometimes when Erin finds me on my computer she asks to watch her cancer video.  She LOVES to watch it.  She comments throughout the whole movie, telling me about what she's doing in it, what she's wearing, about her blue tube-ees, and about how I cried all the time while she was in the hospital.  She asks to watch it over and over.  She laughs though it while I cry through it.  I can't watch it without remembering all that we went through.  I am so thankful that we haven't seen any deep emotional scars in Erin from all that she went through.  I think that what she has overcome so far has built her self-esteem and confidence.  I love my little air bear.


  1. Yep, yep. I heard about Erin starting pre-school. How exciting! Really exciting! You are having the same thoughts about Erin that I (and P & J) are having about Landy - how can he be in PRE-SCHOOL, wasn't he just a babe? I hope so, re: that you get to look beyond c and how BIG she's getting. JaNiel tells me that there's a place that people can go watch without the kids knowing. I need to make time and go watch sweet (and a little nuts) Landy-love in preschool.

  2. you guys deserve every bit of this happiness and normalcy. i was thinking about your family the other day... you just popped into my head. anyways, i was just thinking how wonderful it is that you've hit the landmarks you've hit and that erin is doing so well. love you guys!